Blind to Receive

I was a sight to see as I ran through the city streets, carrying bags full of left over supplies I used to cook dinner for some friends on a cold winter night two weeks ago. My tram to take me home was coming any second. If I didn’t make it to the tram stop in time, I would have to wait nearly an hour to catch another tram home.

The tram stop was just around the corner when I saw him. He was the first blind person I have seen since I moved to Europe four months ago, and I ran right past him. I moved into the bike path to give him plenty of space to walk safely, but I never stopped running.

I didn’t stop.

Minutes later I was nestled inside the warm tram headed home. As the tram continued to slow down and stop for people to get on and off, I wondered why I did not slow down and stop for that man.

Why didn’t I ask him if he wanted to see?

The question consumed my thoughts. With each stop, I was convicted once again.

Why didn’t I ask him if he wanted to see?

Once I was home and tucked into bed, I told God, “I’m sorry I didn’t stop and ask him if he wanted to see. If I see another blind person in this city, I will stop and I will ask.”

Eight days later, I was about to hop on a different tram toward the city center to have my first official session with my mentor. She is extremely punctual, so I knew I could not be late. Once the tram stopped, I walked straight up to the entrance-only door to step on and pay for my trip. The door opened and a man stepped out and nearly ran into me. He was blind. There was my second blind man, but onto the tram I went.

I can’t be late.

I didn’t stop.

I spent the whole tram ride to the city center listening to God. I felt like he was saying, “I am ready to let my Kingdom come and my will be done on earth as it is in heaven, but are you? Are you living in such a way that you are ready to receive whatever you ask for in my name?”

After our session, I walked all around town posting flyers on bulletin boards to raise awareness for a new community group I am creating. I had a lot of ground to cover in only a few hours before I needed to be back on the other side of town dressed and ready for my dance class.

On my journey, I had to cross through the hottest tourist spot in town. Living in a city full of pick-pockets, I already had both of my hands firmly gripping my purse in front of me, knowing I should keep an eye out for people who work together to distract me so they can steal my money. As I walked past a towering 15th century church, there he was. My third blind man. This man was begging.

What if he isn’t really blind? What if it is just a trap for me to get pick-pocketed?

I didn’t stop.

I kept walking and turned back to see an old woman giving money to the blind man begging behind me. As I crossed the street toward the next bulletin board I needed to post a flyer to, I prayed, “God, I’m sorry. I didn’t feel safe. Please, if you place another blind person before me, I will stop and ask if they want to see this time. I will pray for them, and I believe you will open their eyes to see so the world will know you are Lord. Lord, help me to believe. Help me to stop and ask. I want to see your Kingdom come and your will be done on earth as it is in heaven. Help me to live in such a way that I am ready to receive whatever I ask for in your name.”

That was just three days ago. I haven’t seen another blind person yet, but I pray when I do, I will have the courage to be obedient to the Lord’s prompting of my soul, and the compassion to stop and ask if they want to see. I believe God will equip me with every bit of faith and humility I need to pray for that person in the name of Jesus Christ to receive their sight. And I trust that if that day shall come, God will receive glory, even if only in my own heart. But what if he decides to give that blind person sight so the world will know he is Lord?

I will never know if I don’t stop.

I pray I stop.

“You did not choose me, but I chose you and appointed you that you should go and bear fruit and that your fruit should abide, so that whatever you ask the Father in my name, he may give it to you.” –John 15:16

“Pray then like this: ‘Our Father in heaven, hallowed be your name. Your kingdom come, your will be done, on earth as it is in heaven. Give us this day our daily bread, and forgive us our debts, as we also have forgiven our debtors. And lead us not into temptation, but deliver us from evil.” –Matthew 6:9-13


Leave a Reply

Fill in your details below or click an icon to log in: Logo

You are commenting using your account. Log Out /  Change )

Google photo

You are commenting using your Google account. Log Out /  Change )

Twitter picture

You are commenting using your Twitter account. Log Out /  Change )

Facebook photo

You are commenting using your Facebook account. Log Out /  Change )

Connecting to %s